0❹ AFTER 0❺

It's been horrible nowadays,

Maybe this is really the stage,

Of moving on, what do you say?,

Are you feeling it too? Stuck in a cage,

Wanted to be free, trying; but can't.

What would it be really like without "us"?,

I still don't know, I need the answer,

As soon as possible, can you tell me fast?,

I'd made up my mind, 50% i guess sir,

Such fool, is what I have always been.

Will you be the one?,

Make it last forever,

Could you be that someone?,

Someone who'll leave me never,

I loved you once, always have, and always will .. <3

You can fall in love in an instant.
It's letting go that takes time.

❼ᴟᴉᴌᴌẎ

I never thought of you as a friend,

Nor thought that I'd feel something like this,

So simple like you, so silent.

Talented, smart and as cute as is,

Smiled at me, blurted out the words

that's gonna make me feel at ease

The day after, you've been too kind,

Wore the same color. blue so cute,

How could we be so blind,

And again the next day, again with the color blue,

I think I'm starting to like; love BLUE

Everything starts at the end,

Hypothetically, everything has always been that way,

From me being torn into pieces and lost direction,

Is now thinking of what i should be saying at this section,

You're really is such an inspiration, "lover boy" :)

08 After 14

Feeling so relished,

Now I know everything's finished,

I'm starting to feel new,

Trying to see the other view,

Of everything that I have seen before

Wearing a button-filled sweater,

I never felt the pain until sometime later,

The wound that I have gained,

Wondering why it marked like a letter "J",

Maybe a destined coincidence

What could be its meaning?,

When I have forgotten and left you completely,

Does it mean that I should miss you?,

Or is time testing me of what I have put myself into,

Remind me that like the wound, you, inflicted me pain

In this hallway, alone writing,

Put on my earphones listening,

To the song I used to tag you in,

The song which had the title and lyrics in irony,

Stereos' "Butterflies" is its name

I hear those songs we used to listen to,

But never to worry,too,

Because all those times I hear those songs,

They're like just an ordinary songs now,

Should never be given meaning and should never be remorsed

07 After 13

Woke up cold, dizzy,

" You have a hangover, missy ",

By 7:30 I got home,

Realizing something I know,

It's my mom's special day, oh my !

Waiting in line,

For the office to open by nine,

Got tired of standing,

In the middle room I saw you entering,

Accidentally you and me had a glimpse of what used to be

I saw a part of you while I'm in the test,

Doing my best not to look at my guest,

To focus on the important matter,

To show you that I've moved on; though sadder,

Force myself that you and I is done and over

I may have moved on,

But this lost love will keep sailing on,

A promise I made,

A promise that'll be safe,

More like of a pledge to everyone I laid

I'll not force you to be back,

'Cause I'm tired of putting everything in one sack,

It's your choice, your decision,

It may be true or just be forever an illusion,

You'll still be my everything ..

05 After 10

Aware that you are no longer mine,

I woke up numb and knew I'd lie,

To everyone who'd ask me what and why,

Shall I accept that nothing really lasts,

That it is now just a sad goodbye

Here I am, at the center of the intersection,

Don't know where to put my concentration,

Waiting for you, and this is what I get,

Not even a shadow of you I met,

Maybe it's just not meant to be

Although everything seems to be falling apart,

It feels like I should be now far in the dark,

Between us is like a door closing,

But in that nightmare or maybe a dream,

I still chose you

I see you're okay; you're fine,

Why can't I cross the line?,

Call me crazy, tell me I'm blind,

Getting over you is hard and I cannot hide,

That you're the puzzle that completes my everyday life

With you was like forever,

Though we've just started early October,

Without you now is like years,

We've been apart for only ten days,

Who wouldn't have thought today is

FEBRUARY'S 5TH DAY..

DAMN REGRET

There's this girl who is still in love with her ex-boyfriend.

She love him so much that still after a long time , cries every night for she remembers memories with him.

She had a hard time moving on..

..and a hard time trying to get him back :(

it could have been a relationship for years**

"Damn Regret", she thought.

She had nothing to do but cry.

"I know this is my fault. You've changed a lot, planted hate on me and now getting even. Why do you have to leave me like that? Why on the time I finally learned to truly love you? Why? Why do you have to do this to me?"

Every night those words she utter..

Months passed by & they started having communication again.

Daybreak came and they're still texting to each other.

Suddenly the guy said..

"I still love you so much. Would you mind if we will be together again even for the last time. I promise to really love you"

The girl with tears told him too about her true feelings for him ..

[.. And they never got back together ..]

Why??

The guy replied: It's a joke.

I SHOULDN'T HAVE

Boy: Baby, we need to talk.

Girl: Chris, what do u mean?

Boy: Something has come up...

Girl: What? What's wrong? Is it bad?

Boy: I don't want to hurt you, baby.

Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesnt break up with me... I love him so much.

Boy: Baby, are you there??

Girl: Yeah, I'm here. What is so important??

Boy: I'm not sure if I should say it..

Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.

Boy: I'm leaving...

Girl: Baby, what are u talking about?? I don't want you to leave me, I love you.

Bo

y: Not like that, I mean I'm moving far away.

Girl: Why? All of your family lives over here.

Boy: Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.

Girl: I can't believe this.

[FATHER: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously

ERICA!, what did I tell you about talking to boys?!!!... Get off the

damn phone!! (And hangs up).]

Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad.

Girl: You know how he gets, but anyways, I don't want you to go.

Boy: Would you run away with me?

Girl: Baby, you know I would, I would do anything for you, but I can't... You don't know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!

Boy: *Sad* It's okay.. I understand, I guess..

Girl: *Thinking*I can't believe what's going on.

Boy: I need to give you something tonight, because I am leaving on

flight

1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.

Girl: Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.

Boy: Okay, I'll meet you there in 20 minutes.

[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug each other. And he gives

her a note.]

Boy: Here you go, this is for you. I gotta go.

Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry.)

Boy: Baby, don't cry, you know I love you... But I have to go.

Girl: Okay (Begins to walk away.)

[They both go back home. And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her]

It says...

"Erica,

You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and dont you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the

right thing, and you were never there. I didnt think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my l

ove, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Damn, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye.

- Chris"

[ Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in the garbage & cries for hours ]

... A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely... Then she gets a phone call....

Friend: How are you feeling?

Girl: I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.

Friend: Oh, about that. Chris left me a message. A few days ago. He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something...

Girl: Umm.. okay.

[She finds a piece of paper in the jacket,

It says:

"Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words...

Hate = Love

Never = Always

Bitch = Baby

Will not= will

.... I hope you didn't take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me... -Chris"]

Girl: Oh my God! It's a letter.. Ricardo does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can't believe how stupid I am!!

Friend: lol Okay but I g2g... Call me later.

Girl: *happy*okay, bye, I'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me!

... Erica turns the T.V. on......

[Breaking news] "An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for

survivors... This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80... it was on its way to

an all boys boarding school..." the Reporter says.

[ She turns off the t.v. ... 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that Chris was dead & she had nothing to live for... ]

... A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a message. "Its Chris, I guess you're not home so, I called to let you know that I'm alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried. I am staying for good.